Some days you're the statue...

Well, I have to say, 'Sometimes I think I understand everything,.. then I regain consciousness'. Whoever said that life is fair was an idiopathic moron... life is most definitely NOT fair, and in case it's not clear,.. I'm not very happy about it.

We went to Brittney's appt. this afternoon, and well,.. we're now being referred to the pediatric cardiologist. Yes, he heard something, and he believes that it is most likely the same thing that Scott has. Since Scott's is congenital (they believe he's had it since birth, but it just took all this time to build up into a serious problem), and his grandfather had the same thing,.. odds are high that Brittney has the very same thing. She'll get an echocardiogram, and we'll go from there, but most likely she'll just be monitored from time to time until she's a lot older.

The reassuring part is supposed to be that she likely won't need surgery until adulthood,.. oh yes, thank you, that makes it all so much easier to swallow, doesn't it? I'm sorry, but did we or did we not just establish the likelyhood that my child, like her father, and his grandfather, also has a heart condition?? She may not end up needing open heart surgery until she's 35 give or take, but as a parent that knowledge does not stop you from worrying in the meantime.

There's no reason why she can't continue to play soccer,.. I just need to watch her over-exerting since her heart has to work harder... so, she'll maybe trade out a little more during games. And, the chest pains she's been feeling has most likely had to do more with muskuloskeletal reasonings than her heart, but until the cardiologist confirms it, I'm going to continue keeping an extra close eye on her.

So, while it's nothing to get too freaked out about right now,.. It still turned out to be lousy news, and I,.... well, damn it, I'm ticked and I'm sad. Life is not fair.... some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.