I miss...

I was on an FMS Support Forum the other day, and it was suggested that you write out (& share) some of the things you 'miss' with having Fibromyalgia..... so I thought I'd post some of the things I miss.....

I MISS...

I miss me!!!

I miss not being able to think clearly.

I miss my clear head, my memory and quick thinking.

I miss not having to write notes constantly just to remember the smallest little things.

I miss waking up, stretching and not going, OMG, THAT HURTS!

I miss not being able to be as active as I once was.

I miss being able to stand up or walk without sometimes falling over or losing my balance.

I miss having the energy to do whatever I want, whenever I need it to get done.

I miss hearing "how are you?" and have it be something I can truly answer with the word "great".

I miss being normal... I don't even remember what normal is.

I miss being able to function at normal capacity, to remember something I read or saw 2 minutes ago, to be able to keep a conversation going without losing my ground, or feeling like I'm "stuck on stupid".

I miss making plans ahead of time and being able to stick to them.

I miss being able to depend on my body to do or feel how I want.

I miss feeling useful and dependable.

I miss being able to run myself ragged for a day hanging out with friends or family and knowing that tomorrow I might be tired, but not in pain for a week after.

I miss the friends I used to have.

I miss my happy go lucky, nothing is that serious, don't take things personally attitude.

I miss some of my independence,... that total reliance on myself to do things.

I miss remembering what a pain-free day felt like.

I miss being touched without having pain... to not be afraid of getting a hug for fear it will hurt, even though I want them so badly.

I miss being able to help my husband with our business more.

I miss being able to shop without feeling like it's going to kill me to accomplish it.

I miss being able to exercise the way I did to keep weight off.

I miss cleaning my house without having to quit because the pain sets in or worse,.. it sets in and I keep going which is usually what happens and then I pay for it for a week or more.

I miss my strength... not feeling like my arms are weighted down or like noodles, or having legs that feel wobbly, like jell-o.

I miss doing anything that didn't result in pain.

I miss being pain free......... :(