Got Cyber Hugs??

Cuz if so, I sure could use some!

My FMS has been flaring up a LOT this past month, and I am just feeling SO crappy!

Those who know me well, know that ordinarily I am both a realist and an optimist,... always doing my best to see the world as it really is, but also trying to find the good in things. I try really hard not to allow negative energy to swallow me up, but I'm only human, and I think I've just reached a point today where I need to throw a big ol' temper-tantrum about it.

So here is your warning,... if you are not up for listening to me vent & get some things off my chest, then turn around and leave this post quickly,... don't walk,.. RUN! Get out while you still can cuz I'm about to explode! LOL

I have big Faith, but faith only makes things possible,... not easy! So, I am giving myself permission to rant because everybody needs to sometimes, and because I am just so darn sick and tired of feeling sick and tired! I want a hug, but right now touching me HURTS! My pressure points are all throbbing with stabbing, aching pain and while my heart is crying "hold me", my body is screaming, "DON'T TOUCH MEEEE!!!". Fybromyalgia sucks!

Some days I feel like a hip, fun, young mom and then others like I should be president of the Old Phartz Club or something! I feel exhausted. I feel like my head is in a cloud, I can't concentrate, keep my focus, my vision is blurred,... my arms feel like they're weighted down by cinder blocks, my legs feel like jello, sometimes I feel such exhaustion to the point I don't even have the energy it takes to speak actual words..... it's exasperating! Just roll me up into a ball and push me into a corner. Everywhere hurts. A mild touch can feel like a full-on *punch*. I want to scream!

Some flare-ups last only a day or two while others can last weeks,... I did pretty well this past year, but now here I am back in a chronic state of going constantly back & forth between decent days, good days, and then back to completely disabling days... I feel like a yo-yo!

And I would NEVER wish what I have on anyone, but the truth of the matter is, if you don't have it, then you just don't get it. But I SO appreciate those who try to understand, and who love me, and have patience with me on my bad days.

Anyway, so instead of being all sunshine & roses the rest of this evening,... I decided to let myself get pissy about it. It's good medicine once in awhile, right?? And besides, you guys won't know I'm in a relapse unless I tell you!

SO! SOMEbody please give me something else to think about for awhile! Leave me some funny stories or even just those soft cyber (((hugs))) I mentioned I could use.......... cuz they don't hurt! They hug my heart and not my aching body.................. I promise, I'll be more cheerful tomorrow!! *wink*

And to any of you who stuck through this post with me,... a BIG thank you. I actually feel a lot better already, just in getting some of this off my chest!