I can't 'dance' today...

Well, this weekend was a doozey.

I spent all day yesterday trying to move as little as possible because I had such an exasperating pinch in my left shoulder blade that if I did move, it felt as though I were being stabbed. Not exactly pleasant. The girls tried to rub it out for me,.. it's worked other times, but this time the pain fought back, and actually got worse afterward. It got so bad that I couldn't even get up off the floor for awhile (one of those "I've fallen and I can't get up" moments, but without the fall), and every time that I tried it was as though someone were twisting the blade. Now, I'm a sensitive person, but I'm no wussy when it comes to being hurt or sick, and I have a decent amount of tolerance to pain,... I usually push through it and try to keep going. I have responsibilties to tend to, my children have needs,.. too many things that won't get done if I don't do them. Many of you know this 'dance',.. if you're a mom, you know the steps by heart. So anyway, if I'm down you know it's pretty bad.

Last night, the pain had intensified so bad that I didn't even have to move for the pain to literally take my breath away. I was having muscle spasms like you wouldn't believe,... if I coughed it felt like I was going to puncture a lung. The spasms grew so great that it felt as though I had weights on me, keeping my lungs from expanding... It hurt to breathe. It grew to a point where I was crying out quite a bit, and after awhile,.. just plain crying. This was very difficult for the girls,... seeing me in so much pain. I felt so bad for them, but it was so hard for me to hold it in.

I remembered I had a muscle relaxer left over from last summer, along with some prescription IB and vicodin so I took one each of the first two, and two of the latter before going to bed, and after about 15-20 minutes they kicked in, and that was all she wrote,.. thank goodness!

I awoke feeling much better, but gradually throughout the day as I was mobile, tending to things that needed to be done, the pains came back. Not nearly as intense, but this time centered between both my shoulder blades and actually running up my neck to the base of my skull. It's still the kind of uncomfortable pain that just wipes you out. It's exhausting. Not to mention that the rest of your muscles continue to grow tense from tha fatigue, too, which only causes the pain to spread and intensify. At least it never reached the levels that it did last night.

To add to my fun-filled weekend, a water pipe decided to burst this afternoon. Let me tell you,.. that just made my day. We were only without water for about an hour and a half,.. It burst at a connector outside by the back door so it ended up being an easy fix, thank goodness, but for crying out loud,.... did it have to happen today??

As far as my back goes,.. I ended up soaking in the hot tub this evening for about 45 minutes,... it helped, but I am still pretty tense. I played a game of LIFE with Courtney, and then the girls & I all had some tea before bed. I'm having one more cup, and thought I'd post about my ordeal,... As I've said before, this is a bit of a release for me and whether anybody even reads this or not, sometimes it just helps to put stuff 'out there'.

Well, here's hoping that tomorrow is a better day because after not getting anything accomplished all weekend,.. the 'dance' is really calling my name.